Awaken ye Sleepers

Today has already been a stretch in my adventure of a week of no background noise. I have caught myself so many times just about to grab my iPod or open iTunes or hit the radio button when I take a shower. But I haven't done it. My father on the other hand, being unaware of my week-long resolution, does. And I didn't even realize that I sat at the kitchen table today for an hour with the t.v. on as background noise because he'd turned it on.
Unfortunately, I spent just as much time online and in a mostly unproductive state, regardless of the status of my background noise. I'm not sure what to glean from this as of yet.

Here is my question of ponderance for tonight, though ...

Are there people who just don't have souls that will be awakened? Can you awaken someone's soul if it so far dormant they seem not to even have desires beyond suriving? How?
It's a general world question and also a personal question.
I find myself thinking about moving to Finland and investing in people's lives there, building small communities and I was thinking about meeting people for coffee and talking. They would say something and I would respond like "why do you think you do that?" and then they would say either "well ... thought-out answer that reveals a deeper part of themselves" or "I don't know. I hadn't really thought about it." Then they'd go away and think about it. Now, I know that life doesn't really work out that way. And if that's what I want to do, I might as well do it in Muncie just as well as Finland. (But that's also another story.) But I also then find myself doubting whether I can actually help awaken someone's soul. I know it's really the Holy Spirit who does the soul awakening. He's the only one who can speak to us in the voice and the language our souls understand, but still ... I doubt that I can be that person. At least, I don't think I can be that person for people who don't already think along that line (and it sometimes baffles me to think that there are those people, because ... well, I think that way). I know I can be an aid to those who already think that way, because I have been. But can I help people think that way if they don't already? Should I even try to help them? Is it a good way to think? I assume it is, but is it?
Lots of questions with non-postcardable answers (to take an idea from N.T. Wright). But that's what I was thinking on my musicless bike ride home.

Behind Your Eyes

I've been having great trouble getting myself to sit down and write. It's frustrating because I really want to but then it seems there's something else I should be doing. Or I can't make myself be still enough inside to sit. Or whatever reason there is. Then by the time I finally can or do sit down with my computer to write, whatever I had thought of and wrestled with or needed to wrestle with has gone. And my soul has gone to sleep a little bit. So I think, to get into the habit of typing and sitting every day, I will try to just put up a song that has stuck me that particular day. At least for a time. Maybe this will encourage my soul to wake up a little ... and stay awake.
I think it tends to be my defense mechanism to go to sleep. When I get overwhelmed, I generally just want to go to sleep. When I get sad, I just want to go to sleep. Whatever happens, I sleep. So this must also be my soul's defense mechanism. I feel alone and surprised and ashamed of that feeling, so my soul goes to sleep. I wrestle a little, don't have time or can't work it out, so it hibernates. Maybe just getting into the habit of listening and typing will help me have courage to come out into the daylight.

Not to mention, whatever song strikes me on a particular day, is generally with reason ... it resonates with some part of me for some reason. The music I am listening to is a pretty accurate description of what place I happen to be in at that time.

Today's song is again by Jon Foreman:

Behind Your Eyes
Jon Foreman

If you let your feelings go, dear
It's scary what you'll find
I find I'm on your street, dear
And you're always on my mind

And no one needs to know
That you let me in tonight
That you let me see the world behind your eyes
Behind your eyes

I want to see us work, dear
To reach the other side
Our treachery is love, dear
We're on both ends of the fight, dear

We're fighting for ourselves
We're fighting for our lives
Won't you let me see the world behind your eyes
Behind your eyes

And no one needs to know
How scared we are tonight
Won't you let me see the world
Won't you let me see the world
Behind your eyes
Won't you let me see the world
Behind your eyes
Behind your eyes